Spread 212 – The Monkey On My Back


Spread 212 – The Monkey On My Back

12 December 2015 – 20 February 2016

Vintage & personal images, matte gel, matte medium, Nova Color paints, black Micron pen, white Signo gel pen, pencil, white gesso.

Sometimes spreads take some time. This was started in a class with Orly in December and I finally “finished it” today. Are they ever really finished?

I am my own worst critic in life and art. I find that no one can be as mean to me as I have been to myself in my life. As I art journal layers are revealed and concealed. Old hurts are healed and that old monkey that is on my back becomes less and less a burden and more of a friend. Be kind to yourselves.

Edited. Thank you Thomas LaBadia for helping to make my images clickable & easy to enlarge again!

2018-05-03T13:39:40+00:00February 20th, 2016|Art Journals|8 Comments


  1. craftygoofy49 February 20, 2016 at 11:49 pm - Reply

    i agree Brian, I too can be so hard on myself and be filled with doubts. This is hard to overcome, but I am determined to do so.

    Love this spread…..Glenda

  2. John February 21, 2016 at 12:01 am - Reply

    I love this spread. I wish I could enlarge it. I wonder what happened to that capability? I am curious to see some things closer up. I know exactly what you mean about being our own most difficult critic.

  3. John February 21, 2016 at 6:56 pm - Reply

    Yeah! I can enlarge again. Thanks. Happy Sunday!

    • apaperbear February 21, 2016 at 7:20 pm - Reply

      Thank Brilliant Thomas he fixed it.

      • apaperbear February 21, 2016 at 9:03 pm - Reply

        Thomas! You are brilliant! They enlarge EVEN bigger than before! I love it!

    • John February 22, 2016 at 4:41 pm - Reply

      Thank you Thomas! 🙂

  4. Julia February 21, 2016 at 10:43 pm - Reply

    Hi Brian,
    Wow!!!, Love your latest spread, beautiful, and your message. Brought tears to my eyes as I read it… “I find that no one can be as mean to me as I have been to myself in my life”..oh boy.
    A learning curve I am also dealing with clearing.
    I also love the Totem spread and would so love to do a class with you if I wasn’t so far away. D…mn it..:))

  5. Orly February 23, 2016 at 3:09 am - Reply

    Beautiful, and love seeing it larger. True words. Lots of love!!

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